30 Days - HAPPY CHALLENGE

Do you know that strange feeling...like need of crying, but you can not... you do not even have exact reason...you are just not happy... When someone is fine and something really bad happens, he or she moves to mood I am in. But I somehow move to deep depressions...I know I am not the only one...everything seems to be too complicated, but in fact it is not... it is just how I see it... how my brain can not understand it is all so easy around... and people around too. Once I am too good.... what is too bad...so they need to bully... then others can not stand my personality...things which I love.. anything..just for being myself... and then other group of people look down at me with thoughts I am no good enough..that I just pretent something...even those I considered to  be my friends.. So I was at neurologist, ..what caused again pretty long list of doctors following, and she said my brain does not receive enough blood, less oxygen at all, what causes my total no concentration, slower thinking, slower reactions, difficulty talking that well as before...I somehow feel stupid more and more and.... people giving me kind of support live really far away..so sometimes it feels like in my fantasy.. at least I know i can get over it and I know anything is impossible, because it is usually just about our thinking...I heard positive thinking heals, so I searched..and found really lots of things from youtube videos to websides where psychologists advice good stuff. I know, that it sounds pointless if you feel this way too...but we could make this challenge together...it sounded ridiculous to me too...but sitting and doing nothing is ridiculous in fact too..The point of the challenge is to write down thirty things you love..whatever you love, it can be good weather, kittens, cupcakes, roses, or someone...but it must be something what you love.Write these thirty down, and repeat next day, with thirty different things, they cannot be repeated, follow the steps for thirty days. Your mind shall focus on better things and will make you feel different way ( I hope so, I am starting today.. and I can tell you after thirty days.. or we can compare). And another good advice was to say every morning five things you are greatful for...and think about it... Maybe it boost good vibes during the day. Are you up to this challenge with me? Let´s be happy :) Here are cupcakes I recently made...might they bring some smile, Good Nightyy, xoxox